Hey guys! How are you? I'm totally devastated and this day haven't even really started yet for me! I probably have said that since I got my new computer I've lost all of my photos from past which were at my old computer. I saved them on external hard drive, but something went wrong and I understood that only when I tried to save all my photos on my new computer. Actually, it still bothers me and feel so guilty that I didn't check twice because all those photos and files... They meant so much to me. There was photos from year 2010! Can you imagine? 6 years ago. There was photos with my old friends and classmates, and family of course, there was funny photo sessions, there was so many funny videos. My elementary school graduation, all my birthdays, all my friends birthdays, family trips and all my travel photos which I haven't even show you guys. I feel like it's all my fault even I know that something went wrong while I was saving my fails. Fucking thechnologies! And today again I lost all my saved data from my phone. All photos I took last month. Even my VSCO cam app didn't save anything. I was so devastated! VSCO app should have like it's own storage and it shouldn't connect with my phone storage. Like, come on! OK, after all this time it was all my fault, because I deleted my iPhone 6 from Find My Phone, but I thought that it was my old iPhone 5. So I failed. And it all because my brother disabled my old phone. Now I know, that iPhone is totally not meant for little kids. Actually, Apple Inc now have pissed my feelings because my photos from phone could actually save by itself when connected to iTunes & Photos on Mac. But no, I have to approve that I want to import all of my photos. Anyway, I'm not blaming my brother or Apple Inc for all my troubles today ( even thought I'm searching for someone to blame :D ). But from now I'm going to save my photos all the fucking time. At least once a week. 

Also I wanted to say, that my blog is not ready yet. But soon you'll see new posts & collaborations. You would see more today if I had my photos... :) Soon my friends, soon! 

Stay awesome - just the way you are! 

OLIVIA BURTON BLACK DIAL SILVER BRACELET WATCH

 Hey! How are you? Some of you who follow me for some time already know how much I love Olivia Burton watches! Firstly they're good looking, secondly they're affordable. Since my 18th birthday it's tradition to get one as a present. About that time I really wanted Michael Kors one with big dial, masculine bracelet and some diamonds in it as well. But knowing myself and how clumsy I am... I knew that I would be very disappointed if something happened to it. For example getting some water on it, losing it while partying, etc. I wanted to buy affordable watch and prove myself that I can take care of it (like getting first pet you know) so later I can step up and get something really expensive (again great example: like people who have been together for long time firstly get a pet to see if they can take care of it before thinking about kids, ha-ha). So back to the point this post was about - for my 18th birthday gift I decided to get Olivia Burton big dial gold watch. And I was so happy about it! I could say obsessed, because I wore it with everything. On my 19th birthday I decided to get another one beautiful watch from Olivia Burton, again with big dial but with black leather strap. Also loved it as I loved my first baby! You can see post about it HERE. This year I wanted to change something in my jewelry closet so I was looking for Kate Spade watches. But I also checked some Olivia Burton ones and when I saw black dial silver bracelet watch I knew it - it was love from the first sight! This year I wanted silver one. When it came I was like: '' ugh, maybe silver is not my thing... '' But then I wore it, took few photos of it and it was so good looking that I could wear it while I'm at home in bed, doing nothing... LOVE IT! You can get it HERE. 

Stay awesome!

Hello, 2016

It's snowing since I woke up. Ain't no feelings about that. Most people know that I hate cold weather, snow. But I've realised that I can't change weather as well as I can't change other things in life. There is one thing, person who I can change and it's me. I'm the boss and I decide what to eat, what to wear and mostly what to say. It all depends on me. This year I'm changing some things. This is not going to be new me, this is going to be BETTER me. Don't you ever say goodbye to yourself dear friend -- new year, new me -- it's bullshit. Don't lose yourself just be another person, you will never find happiness in thinking like this. I hope that this year is going to be full of love, success and money for adventures and trips all around the world. I hope that most of my dreams will come true and I hope to find true love, see friends who live abroad and explore culture of their new home, I hope to work harder & earn more this years. I hope to be healthy and happy. And I also hope this year will be the best for you too my dear friend! 

Happy New Year! 

Love, Elza.

Forever on the streets of gold

Last 4-6 months have been truly amazing and rough. Plenty of promises, plans, targets. Disappointments. And then promises, plans and targets which came true and better than imagined. Then friends. Losing some of them, leaving some of them, now - missing some of them. But even if you cry on your closest shoulder and creak how much you miss somebody answer is always one - let go. Past is past, future is future. And if somebody have decided to leave me, it's for the better -- for both of us. And then friends who came to visit. And friends who stayed. And friends who are still here. Friends who feels more than friends, but family & soulmates in one. Friends who made this summer one of the best summers ever. Memories - graduating school, festival(s), night trips, home parties, clubbing in capital city, cosy dining together, outdoor concerts, home town parties, time spent with family, plenty parties with family, going to the sea, celebrating birthdays and name days, doing whatever you want to! This summer have been bright! 

But there is no good things without bad things in life, right? At least that is what I'm saying to myself all the time. There is somebody behind me, somebody who's so fragile and scared of real life which is coming. There is somebody who is scared of losing friends, family and good emotions. That person behind me is miserable. This person is always tired, irritable, lost in another world. There is person who have addiction which is killing her for years but she can't fight it. There's might me eating disorder which can't be controlled. There is maniacal depression. There is days when she's happy, and there is days when the only thing you think about is 'what if I wasn't here?' And I always say to that person 'shut up! It's going to be fine'. I'm so tired of feeling tired all the time, I'm so bored of living this life and always hide what I really am. I don't get it, why others be happy and why it's so hard for me? And I still don't get it, if it's really possible - two minds in one body? It's time to change. 

Probably, no one will ever read this post, because we all are egoistic young people here. Probably I will never get better and I will keep hiding this part of myself. Maybe nobody ever will understand me. And that's something what scares me the most. So I'm still thinking that blog is going to be empty for some time until I get better in my head, because if you read my last post and as you see now, I still haven't decided what's going on with my life. But I promise that I'm coming back with new design and content as well. I miss blogging and all of you guys. 

Decision is made

Good afternoon. I'm sorry that I've been away for so long. This time I can surely say that I will be away from blog for some time in future. I will be back for sure with some changes. All that I can say right now: I'm working really hard at my job, last week was just amazingly hard because of full shift (since last Saturday I was working like 5 days full shift and it was so hot in my working place that all the time I thought that I will pass out) and so this weekend I decided to have some more free time. Also yesterday I went to the capital city to join college. I made decision to study something else because tourism I could study only on Saturdays. But I want to do it fully. Even thought these days was sunny and great -- I'm so down right now. I just need some time alone for now so I can organize my future in my head. See you soon guys. 

What do you miss the most?

Hi! How are you? This weekend was full of colorful events. On Saturday morning I woke up early, we had road trip with family to Birzgale (it's small village nearby my town) where we went to see our relatives which I haven't seen at all. They're living in country house with all the domestic animals, mostly with rabbits. Oh, these little creatures are so cute! I took some grass to feed them - every one of them got some blade of grass (right now there are living about 93 rabbits) and that place is amazingly quiet and peaceful. Fields and forests all around. Like, I have seen places like this in my life before, but somehow country side at Birzgale took my heart. Later on Saturday I went out to see my dear friend Kate and then we went to party at town's park. I didn't use alcohol, at all. I will tell you why in other post. We enjoyed our time there but soon we went home. In the next morning, feeling fresh and good I went to my job. I had full shift. I was happy that after all these holidays I was doing something not sitting home or spend my money on things I don't need, okay, mostly junk food. But there is something killing me inside. I mostly work on weekends. And mostly I miss fun things my family does, great events my family goes to. For example my dad and little brother went on forest to walk around and pick some berries and mushrooms and I haven't been in forest for years. There are some things which I hated to do when kid but today I think it's amazing to go to forest with your family. That's one example. But there's plenty of them. I know that I've said that home for me is just a house, but somehow being here makes me feel good, I always feel better, energized. Home is my charger. And my family as well. Even tough I fight a lot with my family, we do have amazing time together and knowing that sometimes I miss so much fun when I work just makes me sad and tired. Like I know this is the last summer I can enjoy my life like I've been enjoying it for past few years and it's going to end soon. And this is the last summer when I will be at home all day long, all summer. I want to spend time with my loved ones as much as possible, because we can never know how much time we have left. Friends, be with your family whenever you can, say how much you love spending time with them, say how much you love them. 

Kisses.